I am going to blog for the 400 days before my 40th birthday. I am hoping that in these 400 days I will somehow become wiser, deeper, laugh more, and live more. I realize that happiness is a force that comes more from within than as a result of outside forces – and I also realize that a personal sense of purpose also comes from within. My sense of purpose at the moment seems to be screaming, “WHAT THE F*&%???!!!”
I have a loving, supportive partner, two amazing children and a good job in the profession I set out to be part of during my university days. By any outsider’s account, I have “arrived.” Yet, somehow it seems I missed the passenger arrival terminal and I want more. I have not arrived, I am in the international transfer terminal continuing to reach for more.
400 days before my 40th birthday and I will challenge myself to learn, grow, and become that (whatever that may be) which I do not feel I am today. As I approach 40 I worry that I am not living my life with the authenticity my soul yearns for – in laughter and in deeper love, connection and meaning. Will I make it before I turn 40?