Ever have one of those days when you seem to eat and eat and eat? Thankfully, I do not seem to have them very often (holidays do not count!) But I have learned a few things about when I do have those days.
First of all, since they are few and far between, I do try to not get too angry at myself for a day-long binge. I also am learning to realize that day-long binges have nothing to do with hunger and everything to do with emotions (known or suppressed). I find that stress, fear, depression, etc. can all lead me to consuming far more calories than I might otherwise consume on a given day.
I am trying to remind myself in those moments to stop and understand what is really going on. Perhaps if I am able to name the stress/ frustration/ feelings then I will be able to continue the day without the psychological need to continue to eat and eat and eat. I suppose there is some truth to the metaphor that eating is filling a void like water fills a bucket… the only problem is, it really does not fill the void – so it ends up being like a bucket with a leak.
Today, 161 days ’til 40, I will work to remind myself to slow down and focus on what is really going on with me, rather than stuffing/ suppressing feelings or stress with food or other means.