In youth we run into difficulties. In old age difficulties run into us. ~ Beverly Sills
Old age is the most unexpected of all the things that can happen to a man. ~ Leon Trotsky, Diary in Exile
Old age is like a plane flying through a storm. Once you’re aboard, there’s nothing you can do. ~Golda Meir
The tragedy of old age is not that one is old, but that one is young. ~ Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray
Today… I… felt… OLD. I realize that, at 39 years and 144 days I should not feel old, but I do. Obviously being beat down by a virus this week has a strong correlation to my current feelings, but sometimes they surface on their own accord.
Some people insist that you never really grow old, and that being old or young is more a function of attitude than actual aging. Others have not taken care of themselves and have bodies that refuse to cooperate and old can feel old at a rather young age, comparatively.
I realize that I feel old when I realize the limitations that my body (endurance, etc.) places on me that I once did not have. When I can no longer stay up late with friends and function at work the next morning I feel old. when I can no longer ride a 20k race without training I feel old. When I can no longer take a red-eye flight and function the next day I feel old. I want that endurance that flexibility, that stamina….. it is gone. I feel old when sitting in my bed reading sounds more exhilarating to me than going on a date night. I feel old when my partner and I start a date night and are so exhausted that we never make it past the dinner to the movies.
Yet, I want old to be an attitude, or rather, I want to feel and act young – for a really long time. I do not want to grow old. The words of poet Dylan Thomas harmonize with my soul, “Do not go gentle into that good night…” I want to know that each day I am living life in a way that will keep me active and young, that will keep me learning, growing, contributing, feeling as though I have a purpose.
Today, 222 days ’til 40, I feel old; but I want to rid myself of that feeling – my attitude needs to be young and full of the excitement of all that the world still has to offer. How about you? How old do you feel?
Let us never know what old age is. Let us know the happiness time brings, not count the years. ~ Ausonius