Pain is a funny thing, isn’t it? I am referring to physical pain, not emotional pain. I have noticed a few interesting things about physical pain, I wonder if you have noticed too……..
Isn’t it interesting that even the slightest amount of physical pain can make our days absolutely miserable? The pain can quickly become our total focus. It can be completely consuming. Recently I had a few weeks of struggling with physical pain and I found that I followed my typical patterns.
Somehow I sprained my ring (fourth) finger on my left hand. I have NO IDEA how on earth I managed to sprain it, but I did. It was swollen, it really hurt, and I could only bend it about half way. For the first few days it was hard to sleep and the pain consumed my thoughts throughout the day. For the next few weeks the pain existed, but only when I moved my finger, so I was less conscious of the pain.
Suddenly, yesterday, I remembered that my finger had been hurting and realized it was no longer hurting – I am not even sure when it stopped hurting. So typical with pain. We notice when it is there, but we do not always seem to notice when it disappears. I spent a few weeks feeling a bit sorry for myself and then, suddenly, I was no longer aware of my finger and back into my daily routine.
This made me sad. Don’t get me wrong, I was very happy that my finger had healed! I was sad because I realized it was easy to be upset and grumpy and miserable when something went wrong, but when it was “right” again I felt nothing. It took me days to realize that I was healed and that perhaps I should express some sort of gratitude that I am no longer in pain.
Today, 82 days ’til 40, I hope I will pause and be thankful for the little things, I want to stop and notice when things go right, not just when they go wrong. I want to live my life with more gratitude.